SO- its been a while!! Thanks for sticking with me...you see, when I started this blog I was a "a newly employed" mostly stay at home Mom-/working artist. Last fall I started back at my graduate school program (which i had begun before getting pregnant with child #1)- going part time but doing my graduate intersnhip at the same time- while balancing being the primary care giver to our two little ones- then 2 & 4, and working weekends (INSANE). The beginning of the summer was grueling while I took 4 classes- but I survived, and had a pretty peaceful fall- (thankfully) since I was adjusting to the routine of carting children to two different schools, activities, appointments, etc.
This is my FINAL semester of school!!! It's slightly surreal- I had my first class today- and while I find myself feeling even more overwhelmed and confused about where my life is headed- I feel like this class gave me some peace, somehow? I am taking 3 classes this final term- and finishing my masters thesis by May.
I WILL DO THIS- it's just the thinking about the process of going through it that seems slightly daunting at times. The biggest thing that's giving me anxiety/stress/obsessive thoughts right now is what the heck will I do when I finish??? How much do I want to work? How much do I need to work? What's best for me? What's best for my husband and children?
When I'm in classes I feel so excited about the field I have chosen (clinical art therapy)- I am so excited to be part of the helping field- and be a force in promoting change in our society (something I feel like we so desperately need) But then, I find myself questioning my ability to do both- to be a "good enough" mother, to be a loving, empathetic and supportive spouse (this is the hardest for me I think:( and to be a clinician. I am constantly working on my ability to compartmentalize these daunting tasks- and to somehow be "successful"- at least in my own mind at all of them- IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE?
It will all work out in the end- and I will accept the journey
that lies before me.This will be my mantra for the next 4 months!
While I have had a serious poverty of posts- I have been enjoying my new-to-me (but refurbished and only $50 iphone:)
Here is what we've been up to...you can follow me on Instagram at 17hannahjane:)
Oh yeah...those are two hammocks! That's how we roll on weekends when Mommy doesn't have to go to work!! I got this idea, actually from the nurses in the NICU when Zella was there after her early birth. There was a baby next door to her that was born at something scary- like 26 weeks gestation- she had been there for literally 5 months and only weighed 10 lbs. The nurses made a hammock out of a sheet for her to lay in. We use queen sized flat sheets, tied to the upper bunk- the kids LOVE them- who wouldn't?!!
A fun family collage project. Zella was in artist heaven- and Mos is quite into honing his fine motor skills lately- so we had a blast- we are using gel medium to glue them onto a canvas board. With the insanely cold temps in CT lately we have a come up with a lot of projects to keep us busy!!
Cashew Caramel Corn (I used a dark chocolate for the drizzle)
Avocado Cream ( I made it with sauteed spicy tofu triangles- it would be an amazing dip- SO SO good!)
Roasted Chilli Cauliflower ( YUMMY- easy, healthy, spicy- totally delicious)
Brussels Sprouts Salad ( a winter staple hear since November- Ive been adding tart apple sto the mix- YUM)
Homemade Cinnamon Bread (great recipe- I omit the raisins- it's easy and makes 2 loafs- 1 for you and 1 for a friend:)
Make some yummy stuff- and check back in from time to time to see how I'm coping:) Hopefully I'll be back soon!